I promise I'll do better!

I know, I know, it's been like five months since I've updated this. I just got so busy and it was hard to keep up, but I got severly admonished this weekend at the Theta reunion, so here it is guys, and I promise to do much better. So where to start now. Tommorrow morning at 3:04 am Ireland will be ONE! I can't believe it! My little baby is a whole year old! Mommy is going to do some serious crying, but it will be happy crying too. She is such a wonderful gift to me. She has beautiful blonde curly hair now (finally!) and gorgeous blue eyes. Eight teeth so far and more on the way. She crawls like a little machine and she took her first steps a couple of weeks ago. Not officially walking yet but makes the effort alot, which is so cute. It also involves lots of falling down which leads to lots of bruises and bump, which make mommy sad, but are part of growing up. She just loves to play all day long with me and the puppy and Grandma and Grandpa. She has the best laugh, it's my favorite sound in the world. I'm still working at the casino, but I changed my hours to four to midnight instead of six to two. It's only two hours but it makes a world of difference to me. Ireland sleeps really well, she goes down between 10 and 11 and will sleep anywhere from 8 to 10, so I am no longer a zombie all day. Occasionally when her teeth are bothering her she gets up in the middle of the night, but not too often. Kati, I gotta tell you, I think Tyler getting sick was our fault because when we got home Saturday there was a lot of puking and diarehha. And then she passed it on, taking us all out one by one. I lost 9 pounds in two days, it was horrible, but thankfully it's over now. So we're really sorry about that, and we're really glad you're okay after your nightmare on the interstate. But we had such a blast at the Theata reunion! It was so good to see everyone and meet all the babies. What a great day, so a huge thanks to Kim Higgins for getting that all together, I can't imagine the work it took. So, elsewhere in our lives, there is still all the lawyer stuff with Chris, which is moving along at a snails pace, like most legal things do. So far it's been filling out financial statements and drafting up what we both want. We're suppossed to be having mediation, who knows when that will be though. I just got some more paperwork from his lawyer which is a draft of everything he wants and it is absoutley rididculous, he must be out of his mind, I can't even write it in here because it makes me so crazy. He hasn't seen her for going on FIVE months now,and he thinks he's just going to demand what he wants from me! You've got to be kidding, the thought of him makes me sick. Suppossedly he's coming to her birthday party tommorrow, but we will see. If he does it will just be to put on a good face for all our friends who will be there. And he has the nerve to tell people I won't let him see her! PLEASE! Even after everything he has done to me and not done for her I have NEVER stopped him from seeing her whenever he wanted, but he doesn't. I try so hard not to let my pride stand in the way of what is best for my daughter, I wish he would do the same, but it's to the point where I'm pretty sure he'll never be what's best for her, he's pretty much just a sperm donor. His girlfriend e-mailed me and told me she was getting Ireland a pink princess couch for her birthday, and asking me if she needed anything else. Are you fing kidding me? I just didn't write back because if I had I would have said yes, she needs an fing father, and a years worth of diapers and formula, and clothes, and oh yeah, Love! God, okay, sorry for that rant. So tommorrow is the big party. I have a lot to do to get ready, and a stupid supervisor meeting at work today, so I gotta run, but I promise you'll be hearing alot more from us!